Jealous looking at people who have a complete family )':

Hi . its been so long since i posted a new post like oh yeah baybehhh ~ ahehe . so ermm .. i've been crying these few days cause ........ i saw my mum ytd . she's currently working at pasar malam like omg , i've been walking there quite a number of times but yesterday was the only day i saw her . im so sad ): i miss her so much you know ! uhmm cause she left me when i just got my psle results ? like yeeeaaahh ..... so here's how the story starts , my parents , me and my father's best friend were at m'sia condo . they went to swimming at the condo there then i was kinda okay uh but right aft i check my mum's phone , her inbox , i was damn shock and downtrodden . i showed my 2nd bro the convo of my mum and my dad's best friend , ah teng , they confess to each other . how can a mother do this to us like seriously ? what is not enough ? i know im not good enough . im not a good daughter . but why must she do this to us actually ? )': then aft that my grandmother came in my room , asking me why im crying and she saw me holding my mum's phone . so she asked me why but i say nothing i want to go back to sg . then as my parents came back with that ah teng , my mum asked me why am i crying and asked my 2nd bro as well . but the both of us told her we want to go back to sg . but my grandmother , she told my mum i wasa crying while i was holding my mum's phone . and then my mum got mad , me and my bro somehow disrespected her by answering her in a harsh way . not long aft , my dad called me and indra out for a talk . then we both got scolded but yeeaah , because of nothing . how awesome can it be ? just because we dont want to see our parents divorce , we didnt say anyth abt mum . we kept everyth to ourselves . and from that day onwards , i started to disrespect ah teng , including my mum . you know the feelings when you follow your mum to the mall and she wanted to get something , a wallet and a ring and she said she want to give it to dad but you saw those things is with someone else , which is your own father's best friend ? like fuck right ? )': then i kept those things i think about for few weeks or maybe a month . then one day , we went to karaoke at m'sia then at night we went to this coffee shop with a somehow stage for anyone to come up to sing which is located nearby our condo and its like , my mum is always with her phone texting someone then ah teng asked me if i want him to teach me how dj usually work then i told him to shut up . he said "sampai hati tasya bobal nan uncle macam gini" then i reply , "yer , sampai hati uncle buat keluarge tasya gini ! " *eyes filled with tears , roll eyes* then my mum brought me inside the coffee shop , we were seated on the sofa and she was still texting , so yeah my dad thought that she care to text more than me so he went in to check who she was actually texting with . then my mum quickly delete every single msgs before my dad could actually snatch her phone . he asked my mum whr has all of the msgs gone to and they started to shout at each other , quarreling , arguing IN PUBLIC ! you know how embarrassing it is ?! :/ then my dad misunderstood , he thought my mum was contacting with his other friend , but no , its ah teng . my dad screamed , asking me to follow him back home then off to sg . then i stopped infront of my mum , crying . my mum told me to stay but my dad came and asked me to follow him , so yeah . we went to condo and took everyth . we went back to the coffee shop , that stupid ah teng step good2 only padahal 2 faced ccb _|_ then my dad wind down the window , asked my mum , if she think her current boyfriend is more important or *finger pointing at me * then she asked for her passport so my dad had to gv it to her . i was crying like some mad girl , till my eyes were swollen then my mum PROMISED that she would return back . so i TRUSTED her . as we reached at sg , my bro asked why mum is not arnd so i told him everyth then my bro asked me to tell my dad the whole story , the truth so i do as he say . waited for my mum to return back , but not even her nose were seen . only her presence </3 *sigh* sadlife right ? i know ): haiss .. then when i saw her ytd , she like not happy sia when she see me . she quickly turn away when she saw me and im like so sad . >: i wish i could hug her , have her back , but no , i know i cant )'x im so so so so so sad . and thats why , sometimes , i keep quiet suddenly because all this things snapped my brains and i was thinking , wondering , why is this things happening to me and do i really deserve all this . haiss .. <///////////////3