Must i face this all over again ? :'/

hey idk why i dont feel like doing my work . not lazy , just that im like giving up on everything . idk ah :/ hmm . oh yeah , i wonder if he want her back . well maybe ? only god knows . well if he does , im fine with anything . its not that because i want us apart thus i keep posting if he want her back or i gv up or wtv laah horr . just that , i love him and i wish he could get the best things in life . well maybe , just MAYBE , he might go for her back , idk but i know , i wont love anyone else as much as i love him . cause he's my type . i love him so effing much . idk what's best for him , whether to continue our relationship or maybe let it go , just to see him with my bestfriend , nadya . idk . i need help omg )': athirah even asked me if i like anyone else other than syahdirwan , but no . i rlly dont have anyone else in my mind except him . well i need to meet nas again to talk about this . i really need to talk to someone . >: omgggggg if thats the only way to see everyone happy , then thats it :/ idk laah . im so confuse pls . alright thats it , bye T.T