God makes us different for a reason . It’s hard to keep friendships these days . I guess people think it’s okay to leave when you need them the most ~ Until you know my story , don't tell me who the fuck i am . Anyway , this is my blog . I post things about my life . Like it or not , I don't need your comments . Accept me the way I am cause this is the real me , no lies . ♥ k thanks bye (:
Friday, June 24, 2011
Wonder what's wrong with me tonight :/
i dont know how many times i actually repeat same things all over again . but srsly its 4:08am and im missing my boyfriend and my girlfriends so fucking much . i wonder how my baby is doing at KL now . i just cant sleep tonight . i miss him so much ): additionally , i miss my girlfriends too . i miss those times when we keep meeting up to study or to have a break as it is a sch hols so yeah .. it's like , i know they meet up each other , without me . i know . i just kept quiet cause i find it so hard to say but so easy to type here . i cant look at them , idk why but i will remain as quiet as possible controlling myself not to shed a single tear infront of them cause i know if i cry , i'll cry , knowing they don't care . sometimes they cant see , i've been pretending im alright , like as if nothing ever happen . idk why , whenever i want to talk to them , i feel like crying at th same time . i miss them . i miss the old us . its okay i know they are happier and much more satisfied without me . i guess , nobody actually really needs me in their life . since im th one who's always the main problem in any situation . sometimes , i dont get them . asking a question also can be a big issue . probably , im gonna remain like this , throughout my life . why do i even exist when actually im always the main fault ? do i deserve living ? why do some ppl care so much ? i cant hide the emptiness which majority ppl let it show anymore . i cant be fake anymore . i never wanted things to be so cold . idk lah bye ah :'|
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