Love is sacrifice ♥

Baby , if you think im cheating on you like some of your ex did or i dont have feelings for you then i've got nothing to say . srsly , i've never had this strong feelings for any of my ex before . its like , a first love , my one and only true love . wasn't it written all over my face ? you know i dont say sweet things frequently well its because i dont want people to think im a sweetalker or whatever . just that , this is how i feel right now . i dont know how to explain to you how much i really do love you . i dont know how to make you believe anymore that i love you so damn much . i miss you a lot yeah really . additionally , i wish thr is someone who can help me to make you believe that my love for you is faithful . but its okay , this is life . i have to face it anyway . so here i am , wondering what am i suppose to do to make you believe . you know sometimes i show you my fucked up attitude but behind all that , you don't know actually i do regret and hurt myself . and i really dont like it when you talk abt my past . you should know why yesterday i acted that way . actually this morning when i just wake up from sleep as you texted me at 4++am which is when i fell asleep so i read your msg saying , " no , thr's no tmr , no later , bye " ouch . :/ and i thought you would at least bother to text me but as i log in to fb , the first thing i go to is your prof , duh . oh and wow , marvelous , you're having so much fun with your neighbour . i dont mind actually , but is it that hard to leave me a msg that you're alr awake ? i did piss you off the day before this thing happened but at least do you even care to text and ask what im doing and so on ? you were so happy when you're wall-to-wall with your neighbour . then , i cant take it anymore i posted , " the feelings when you don't even know what you're suppose to do and what you're actually feeling right now . -_____- urghh " & " im better off alone anyway " . oh then , you gave a fuck to call me . hey , actually i was waiting . i saw you wall-to-wall with your neighbour alas , idw to spoil th convo and also , i want to see if you will give a fuck actually about me . then as i ans th phone i kept quiet . why ? cause i hv no idea what to say . why ? cause you're always sad when you're with me , yet so happy when you're with your neighbour -that's from what i see- so you hang up th phone . oh how wonderful is that ? i actually had something to say , i wanted to ask you out but you hang up liddat so yeah , what am i suppose to do ? call back ? LOL ? so i went out with rachel . then when i reach waterfront , i called you , you asked me whr i was , i answered and you say i didn't even ask you to tag along with us . why didnt i ? because you were sooooo happy with your neighbour , you hang up the phone just like that , tell me when will i get the chance to speak , like srsly ? we've been tgt for 2 months and a lot of things happened alr . why ? i guess i just suck at love , right ? i will always show attitude for no reason right ? i've changed , right ? you know baby , despite all this , i really do love you . well if i dont , think back , why do i do things for you ? why do i cry for no reason ? why do i even bother to send you food right infront of your door step when you were starving even when my friends were at my house ? why do i have the time to go to the chalet instead of spending my time with my used to be bestfriends ? why must i lie to sheetal on that day , just for the sake of spending my time with you ? why do i even accompany you when you want to get something to eat somewhr even though its at night , with my sch attire on ? if i dont love you , i wouldn't be waiting for you at the library and lied to my friends just for the sake of seeing you . can't you see all this ? isn't it clear enough ? idk laah its up to you wanna believe or not . but seriously , i really do love you a lot . and i dont wanna lose you . baby , please tell me that you'll stay :'/ ilyvm bye ♥