You know , faking a smile is so damn easy :/

Hi . this is uhmmmmmmm me ? :D hhehehe . idk ah so random hor take photo LOLOLOL . actually idk what's my mood right now . so many things is happen and im still confused . you know i'd rather feel sad melancholy , sorrowful , downtrodden , depressed , unhappy , gloomy , feeling a bit blue , down in the dumps , mournful , having a heavy heart , cheerless , joyless , woebegone , desolate , doleful , in low spirits , rueful , lamentable , tearful , crushed , dark , somber , pathetic , grieving , wretched than letting others feel that way . i keep things to myself , bottle up my feelings and when i cant take it anymore , i'll show my fucked up attitude to everyone around me . haiyah ~ actually idk what to do now . cause like ........... idk ah :/ very the speechless . i dont even know what to type . and im so so sad . and that's that . although my mood change very fast , i still feel something is just not right . it seems like i suck for life . i suck for everything . im like fucked up idk whether im angry or sad or happy or whatever shit I DON'T KNOW OH AM GEE CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT ?! -.-" haish .. i guess im just so down . i feel like making myself vanish from everyone . im like no longer a happy girl anymore since i stepped into fuchun sec . like knnccb i hate fuchun . -_______- a lot of things have been changing as well as myself . and i dislike that . idk ah im like down yet i have th mood to eat . i need someone to talk to actually like seriously like yaaaaaaaaaa . probably a girl , not a boy ok bye lah bye haishh ~ :/